There’s no cry so loud, yet rarely heard, as
that which comes from the bowels of suffering. This suffering occurs in the
deepest part of our inner being. To reveal it makes one vulnerable to the
core: vulnerable to misunderstanding, misrepresentation and abuse.
Most suffering results from something
ruthlessly torn from us, something that is rightfully ours. If one has an
insufficient opportunity to express the inner grief, gain understanding, or
lacks a big enough reason to endure, then, loneliness becomes a haunt for
lies from the pit: lies about God’s love; God’s faithfulness; God’s
nearness. .
A close friend who had been a two term
governor is facing such an experience. He left office amid a quagmire of
misrepresentations, all of which were proven false. Still, that doesn’t
erase the damage inflicted by his enemies. He’s struggling to rebuild his
life, which is proving to be a strenuous task.
“Why all this suffering, Ron? Why me?” he
asked.
The question is valid. While governor, he
embraced the challenges. But time and trouble inevitably erodes one’s nerve.
That’s when such questions demand answers. Today, his isolation is
suffocating.
Is God simply observing this man’s struggle,
not being overly concerned with the outcome? Is God neglecting to remember
the sacrificial efforts he put forth to help the people of his state? Does
God not care that he is sinking in the quicksand of lies? When will God rise
up to defend and deliver him? Why does God seem lax concerning his promise
to vindicate and protect this man?
Have you ever been in such a time as this? If
so, let’s reach for a reason big enough to strengthen you to overcome the
sense of betrayal and abandonment.
Understandably, we feel the need to draw God
into our suffering, knowing that with one spoken word he can end it. Is it
possible, however, that we need to reverse our view completely. If Christ is
the Creator and Redeemer, is not our suffering actually his suffering?
Rather than trying to get God to enter our suffering, perhaps we need to
realize that our suffering is actually his suffering.
That was the Apostle Paul’s view. In fact,
Paul held this view so strongly that he wrote, “I want to know Christ and
the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his
sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to
the resurrection from the dead” (Philippians 3:10-11).
Horrific experiences will impose themselves
upon us all. Where is the Lord when such things occur? Is he simply watching
and doing nothing? Is he having fun watching us squirm? No, the fact is that
it’s happening to him as well.
Christ came to enter our suffering, which in
fact is his suffering. He is the Author of creation. Everything that happens
in creation happens first to the Creator. When you are violated he is
violated. Is this not the implication of Christ’s words, “As you have done
it to the least of these, you have done it to me?”
I wonder, for example, how many early
Christians pled for God to get involved in their suffering. After all, Saul
of Tarsus was bent upon arresting and executing as many as possible. Little
did they know that Jesus would confront Saul with the question, “Saul, Saul,
why do you persecute me?” (Acts 9:4). It wasn’t, “Why do you persecute my
people; but rather, me!”
All of life affects the Creator before the
creature. Like the early church, we enter his sufferings.
Here’s a vital truth: Christ became like you
in suffering so that you in turn can become like him in suffering. In the
squeeze of Gethsemane (the wine press) both you and Christ are experiencing
the same thing. Herein there is a union occurring that could not come any
other way. Thus, when you see him face-to-face in eternity you will know him
as he is.
How will you know him? Everything is made
after its kind. You have become the kind of Christ in spiritual birth. Just
as growth follows birth, so knowing the Author of your kind comes through
suffering. You will know him to the degree you become like him. You become
like him to the degree you share in his sufferings.
Here’s what hinders us from grasping this: we
do not view our suffering as an assault on Christ; but rather, as an assault
on us. We think our suffering is too mundane to be attributed as Christ’s
sufferings.
But that’s not true. We are the created and
all things happen first to the Creator then to us. If we don’t see it this
way then we are always trying to get Christ to enter our suffering rather
than finding fellowship with him in the suffering.
Paul wanted to know Christ as deeply as
possible; thus he desired whatever suffering it would take to develop his
relationship with Christ—to make him after Christ’s kind. And the deeper he
knew Christ in suffering the higher he knew him in his resurrection power.
Paul embraced this process as a primary goal in is life: see, Philippians
3:10-11.
Let’s illustrate this. Rather than feeling
abandoned by God when persecuted, he sought relationship with Christ in the
suffering and looked forward to the deliverance in the power of his
resurrection.
What none of us like is that death must
precede resurrection. There is a serious dying to self if we are to come to
know Christ in suffering. We can determine how well we are dying to self by
the level of quietness in our hearts during the suffering, despite being
stripped of things that are proper and good, even rightfully ours.
For instance, knowing that he may perish in
Jerusalem Paul wrote, “However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if
only I may finish the race and compete the task the Lord Jesus has given
me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace” (Acts 20:24).
Having died to self interest Paul could throw
his life into Christ’s cause, despite being foretold that persecution
awaited him at every turn. What was the result? He experienced many
resurrections in Christ’s power, such as impacting countless millions of
people for two thousand years.
Stated another way, Paul could not have
written “We are more than conquerors” without first writing, “I consider
that out present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will
be revealed in us” (Romans 8:18).
It’s by abandoning our love affair with self
and entering the death of Christ that we are resurrected to grand purposes
in this life before the final resurrection into eternity.
In it all, however, the object is not
accomplishments; but rather knowing—knowing Christ.
Two people can live side-by-side and never
know each other because they live in two different worlds of interest and
experience. But let them go through shared suffering and they become bound
together after their kind. They have an unspoken knowing of one another that
could not be forged any other way. The deeper their shared suffering, the
deeper they are of a kind.
When Christ’s authority was rejected, he
willingly laid it down and escorted his captors to his own cross. Likewise
Paul did not exercise his authority in Christ when unfairly beaten and
imprisoned. He even apologized for speaking harshly to an unregenerate high
priest.
While Jesus and Paul never denied their
God-given authority, they allowed men to strip them of it. Thus they were
bound in mutual disgrace. When they met in heaven they knew each other on
this level.
Both Jesus and Paul were rejected by their own
people; another level of knowing each other.
Have you been betrayed? You’ll know Jesus on
that level.
Have you been stripped of dignity? You’ll know
Jesus to that level.
Consider a raw violation—rape. Was not Jesus
raped when his body was shredded by whips? His body was invaded and his
rights stripped away—that’s a form of rape. If you have been violated in any
way you’ll know him on that level.
Floods of illustrations come to mind. If you
trust God’s purposes, you will find a shared suffering bringing a deeper
knowing of Jesus Christ. And when you meet him on high it will be at these
points that you will embrace each other.
Don’t rob yourself by running from suffering.
Don’t curse it. Paul wanted it. So should you. It’s where you come to know
Christ in the crucible of suffering where he shapes and develops you into
his kind. The rewards of knowing him more fully will eternally outweigh the
momentary pain. Paul’s cry was not for deliverance so much as to know him
more fully.
Stop dreaming of a better life when suffering
passes. The object is not a better life, but rather, a better relationship
with Christ. It’s in knowing him and becoming like him that a better you is
resurrected. Further, Christ’s resurrection power establishes your labor
eternally.
Said another way, what we do for Christ is
admirable, but temporal. What he does through you by his resurrection power
are the accomplishments that stand forever.
Whether it’s my governmental friend laboring
to recapture his life from the thievery of lies or some crisis unique to
your life, keep in mind that it’s happening to Christ first. You are
privileged to enter into his suffering. Therein you are coming to know him
in ways impossible by any other path.
Prayer: “Dear Heavenly Father, it’s not about
getting you to see my suffering, but to realize my suffering is actually
entering into your suffering. This is your world and your grief is great.
Thank you for the privilege of feeling a small portion of the agony still
known to your heart through my momentary suffering. Help me to meet you and
know you more deeply through my experience, which is actually your
experience. I’m only sharing in it. Thank you, Amen.”